sighh. its new year again.

Monday, 31st of December 2007 -- 14:52 pm.

tonight im gonna go cork and screw there's gonna be a DJ from hongkong food and drinks dancers loud pumping music fireworks and countdown (kalo jadi. hahah i dont even know if i got a driver or not) and its all new york style. so! kalo ada yang mau ikut let me know!


it didnt really hit me, that this was the end of my fourteenth year, until i stopped thinking, planning and provoking people to join my new year's eve party. then.. i started to think and deem myself into it.


i guess its true, time fliessssss so fuckin fast.

gue seneng nambah umur (mumpung masih teenager ya itu dia yang gue bilang haha) that means more and more things i can do when im older.
tapi gue sedih bangsat mikirin orang tua dan kakek nenek gue yang makin hari makin tua makin nambah keriput. bahkan kmarin Kakek gue bilang

" sighh.. another year gone.. another year older.. "

dan dia terlihat sangat depresi sambil berdoa rosario.

gue gak bisa ngebayangin ntar udah gede : nikah hamil melahirkan (buset!) jadi nyokap2 - jadi oma2 - keriputan - banyak penyakit - makin hari makin lemah - kian hari mikir kapan gue bakal mati - slalu khawatir kapan ajal gue akan dateng - khawatir kapan ajal suami gue bakal dateng - dan gue gak bisa mikir pas saat itu my mom and dad isnt around anymore.



YOU KNOW WHAT THIS POST IS MAKING ME FRIGGIN DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW OKAYYYYY FUCKKKKK. hellhellhell bloodyyy helllllll mungkin ntar gue pas tua bakal baca ini ulang sambil ketawa2 haa--haa.....




anyways.
have a splendid new year.

my project 08 begins tonite at 00:00